Thursday, February 18, 2010
The Trust Fall
Remember back in junior high days when at some point you tried the trust fall with a group? Where you cross your arms and fall, counting on those around you to catch you. The moral of the story is this is what God does for us, in every situation, if we simply trust. I remember being at a youth group lock-in and this happening. I shied away to the side and managed not to participate. Whew... dodged that bullet.
Faith has always come very easy to me. But I'm finding trust, not so much. Of course I say I trust God, and I truly do - to some extent. But there's that part of me that holds on to a bit for myself and tries to solve my problem myself. As if my solution is going to work better than His?? As if He really needs my advice. I'm pretty sure I could drop my voluntary service as adviser to The Great I Am. He doesn't need me worrying, but instead just handing things over for good.
This is a big lesson for me right now. Feeling a bit overwhelmed when I try to hold on to things. I always feel better when I let it go. But then I pick it back up again. Ouch! Why do I do that? I don't want God to be my co-pilot. Those bumper stickers always struck me as odd. If He's the co-pilot he's sitting in the wrong seat!! And He doesn't need a co-pilot anyways.
So, I'm trying to trust. It's a process, but I'm praying for peace as I once-again turn it over and trust.
9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9